Letting Go of 2016 and Setting Intentions for 2017

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For the past several years, I’ve started the New Year feeling motivated. I set big, lofty goals and set out to achieve them. I worked my butt off and when I achieved my goal I would set a new one. It lead to a lot of chasing, a lot of pushing and a lot of work. This year I’m feeling different.

At the beginning of 2016 I set the theme of  “focusing on what matters” in an attempt to simplify my life. But of course, because as soon as you try to plan and control your life, I was reminded that life never goes according to plan and 2016 became the year of CHANGE.

Looking back I think that setting these focuses for my life was God’s way of preparing me for what was to come. I needed a reminder of my foundation before my life was completely turned upside down.

On February 25th, 2016 my life was forever changed. My usual morning phone call to my Dad was unanswered and in my gut I knew something was wrong. I called and I called and text and emailed with no response. Within less than an hour with help of family and friends it was confirmed what I already knew in my heart, my Dad was gone. He had suffered a heart attack peacefully at home and went quickly and poetically after helping shovel his neighbor’s snow.

Losing him unexpectedly forced me to quickly accept what had happened. I had the unfortunate advantage of already losing my Mom so this time things hit me hard and quickly. There was no denial, just gut-wrenching pain and quick acceptance. I found peace in our last conversation about finally feeling comfortable as a working Mom, him telling me how proud he was of me and him getting to see a picture of Buel that day. “He’s getting so big” was the last thing my Dad said to me.

The months that followed by Dad’s passing were a blur. I kept myself busy with managing my parents’ estate and my organizational skills became crucial. In four months I closed out every single bill, selling the company that my Dad started when he was in his early twenties and sold my childhood home.

At the same time, amazing things happened for our family. I do not see this as a coincidence but more so a reminder that things in life happen for a reason. A month following my Dad’s passing we finally got approval for our short sale after eleven months of waiting, quickly put our condo on the market and sold it within 24 hours. And from there, our life went into overdrive.

The second half of 2016 was one where I stretched myself further than I ever thought I could. I became determined to make my life exactly what I wanted it with my priorities clearer than they had ever been before. The last six months of the year were all about pushing, striving and working.

As the year ended we finally were able to slow down and I spent the month reflecting on what had happened. I struggled with constant, all encompassing feeling of guilt from what we were able to accomplish in such a short amount of time. We had the life worked so hard was achieved but it came at a cost and nothing felt quite right.

It’s a weird feeling to struggle with happiness while grieving. To some extent it feels wrong but a part of me always remember that my parents would be proud of me. This constant back-and-forth is something I need to let go of before I’m able to move on.

So, as we start the new year I am letting go of 2016. I’ve accepted every part of the year, both good and bad and I’m ready to move on.

seek-kathleen-clipper-day-8-web-version-716x1024In 2017 my intention is contentment. My goal is to find peace in every situation and accept that the positive can still exist despite the negative. I want to find ease in our every day routines, let go of my need for perfection and embrace the messiness. I want to slow down and enjoy the little moments with my son. I want to nourish my body and continue to take care of myself, encourage my husband to do the same and foster my friendships. And most of all, I want to practice gratitude and shift my focus from the negative that will inevitably exist no matter how hard I push, plan or focus. I’m ready to let go and just be content.

What are you letting go of from 2016? What are your intentions in 2017?

 

 

December Focus

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I’m currently in Seattle, WA on a work trip to the Microsoft headquarters. While it’s always hard to leave, I do appreciate traveling because it gives me some time to myself. I’m looking forward to reading on the plane, getting to have some good food and for some energizing meetings.

I’m also looking forward to enjoying the last month of the year. There is a lot to celebrate and lots of fun on the calendar.  To keep me focused on what matters, I sat down and wrote out some goals for the close of the year. [Read more…]

November Focus

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First of all, I cannot believe it’s November. For me it seems that by this time is the time of the year that I start to get a little anxious and start thinking about 2017 goals. I’m definitely there and quite frankly I’m feeling a bit burnt out on goal setting. This year has been a year of push and hustle and it seems like I’m slowly dragging to the finish line. With that in mind, I put a lot of thought into this month’s goals.

November is going to be a crazy month for me. There are two trips on the calendar for me-one for fun to Portland as a family and one for work to Seattle. In between the trips we are hosting Thanksgiving and we are in the midst of the last few weeks of our remodel. Our house has been turned upside down as they finish the last steps of painting, floors and cabinetry and I have to admit it’s been a huge test for me to have our normally clean house be pure chaos. It’s also the end of my busy season at work, which always a hustle to the finish. There’s a lot of good going on, but it’ll be a month of trying to find balance amidst the chaos. [Read more…]

October Focus

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September left me on the verge of being totally burnt out. There’s a lot going on in our life and it does not seem to be slowing down anytime soon. This month I’m focusing on trying to do what I can to manage this feeling, even though I know patience is the key.

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September Focus

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Good Morning!

We had an amazing trip to NYC and I look forward to sharing all about it next week. In the meantime, I thought I would stop in to keep myself on track as we move into the new month.

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July Focus

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We are now officially over half way through the year and I had to admit that I’m proud of myself for sticking to my monthly goals this year. It’s almost time to get out and enjoy the long weekend, but first it’s time to check in.

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June Focus

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Two posts in one week! We are halfway through the year and I’m keeping myself to holding goals for the remainder of the year. But first, let’s focus on my goals for June.

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May Focus

Good Morning!

It was a productive, relaxing and busy weekend over here. My weekend started off with a yoga class and my first book club meeting in months on Friday night. The rest of the weekend was a combination of organizing for our upcoming move (we donated nine bags of stuff!), relaxing and hanging out as a family. The countdown is on and it is starting to feel real!

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April Focus

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It’s been one heck of a week over here! Finally, after 10 months of waiting we got our house approval on Tuesday. We are super excited, but that also means that our condo is going back up on the market today, our inspection is next week and we have started the fun process with the bank.

Meanwhile, I’m in the process of dealing with my Dad’s Estate and selling his company and house. Not to mention the fact that we have a five month old, a high energy dog and two full time jobs. Things are crazy right now, to say the least.

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Rainy Day Planning

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I’m looking forward to a “normal” week after two and a half weeks of travel to Michigan for my Dad’s services and San Jose last week for work.

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