Let’s face it, life is messy.
As much as we try to filter it and share only our highlight reel, life is messy and we may as well embrace it. I’m here to tell you this morning that you’re not alone and I’m currently going through a messy phase.
As I write this post, I am sitting here with my sleeping, sick kid on my lap. My hoodie is covered in saltine crumbs that I watched get dumped of the cracker sleeve onto our guest room bed. This is our second sickness in the past three weeks and at this point, I’m just hoping to make it through the day.
Even though I work for a flexible company, the work still needs to get done and it’s stressful. We’ve been juggling schedules, moving meetings and walking the fine line of letting parenthood affect our careers.
Our house is chaotic as we’ve fallen behind our usual tasks. We’ve bickered about the most ridiculous things and got into too many arguments on garage organizing logistics and lawn mowing lately. I’m feeling unorganized and want to tackle so many projects that I just can’t find time to get started.
And our usual routines? They have been thrown out the window.
We’ve had takeout for the past three nights and I have not been to the gym in over a week. My sleep has been sub-par and I’ve been indulging in a sugary, 3:00pm coffee far too much. I miss my usual routine but lack the energy to get back to it.
My social life is non-existent lately. I’ve been struggling to keep up with my grand plans for this blog. My free time is filled with worrying about trying to find balance again.
And yes, I know that compared to most of the world’s problems these things are trivial. But things add up and some days I feel like I’m limping through life, but I’m making it.
We’re making it, and this too shall pass.
I have faith that we will find our groove again. We made the decision to postpone our vacation to New Orleans this week because of the weather. But, I have to admit it was a bit more than that. We’re burnt out, in need of rest and in need of some time to find balance as a family. So that’s what we are going to do.
I’m looking forward to have five full days off with a wide open agenda to fill with family time. We may use some time to get back on track, but overall we’re using the time to enjoy spending time together. We’ll be spending a few days in the city because a staycation sounds just what’s needed to get this family back on track.
I turn 31 tomorrow and we’re celebrating with a simple family dinner out. This year has been the year I learned to get comfortable with being uncomfortable and it’s served me in many ways. I’ve learned to find the joys in the messiness and the faith to know that things will balance themselves out.
I’m looking forward to a new season, a fresh start and the perspective to know that the messy times help you grow and appreciate the easy times.