Now that we’re two weeks into the No Weigh October Challenge, I thought today would be a good time to check in.
The biggest thing I’ve learned? You can feel good about yourself with or without knowing the number on the scale. You can also feel crappy about yourself.
Within in the past two weeks, I’ve come to realize how much the number on the scale can either be my best friend or my biggest enemy. And that over the course of my relationship with my body, I’ve come to trust the scale more than my own intuition.
One example was when I woke up one morning feeling awesome about myself. I felt slim, my clothes fit well and overall I just felt good. I found myself wanting to step on the scale to “confirm” I was feeling good. I stopped myself and quickly realized how crazy that was.
Over the weekend, some clothes arrived that I had ordered online. Most of them weren’t fitting well and I quickly got frustrated with myself. “Ok time to go on a diet,” I thought to myself while I thought about going into my bathroom to step on the scale to see how I was doing.
And then, again, I realized how crazy that thought was. I reeled it in, I owned how I was feeling and realized that after a stressful week, I had simply been eating out way to much and feeding my soul with cookies rather than tackling the feelings at hand. This is fine from time to time, so I fessed up, realized that I wanted to feel better and paid attention to what my body was craving the last few days. And guess what, today I feel pretty damn good.
What I’ve come to realize over the past two weeks is that I need to be in charge of how I feel about my body. I don’t need a number to tell me how good I’m feeling or how bad I feel about myself- whether that be the number on the scale, the number on the size of my pants or the number on the size of the girl next to me who “appears to have it all together.” I’m in control of my own body. And that feels better than the number on the scale has every made me feel.